Wednesday, December 31, 2003

old school journal 12.31.03

so i decided to write something today. since it's new year's eve, i'll write about that. and i'll also write about something else.

first, the something else. "so, what do you want to do?" i really don't care what we do.

from Good Will Hunting:
Skylar: Maybe we could go out for coffee sometime?
Will: Great, or maybe we could go somewhere and just eat a bunch of caramels.
Skylar: What?
Will: When you think about it, it's just as arbitrary as drinking coffee.

and so often we find things to entertain ourselves and occupy our time. when hanging out the focus should be on your friends. but so often it seems that we hang out just to not be alone. i'm sure many people in our society know what it feels like to be alone in a crowded room.

and this has become spiritual for me. sadly, i admit, this is where i am spiritually. i find ways to occupy my time so that i dont have to sit face-to-face (one-on-one) with God. how did this happen? i think it was just a gradual process of neglect. first, maybe i became too busy. then, the busyness faded and i got bored. and instead of curing it with my creator, i wasted time with other things. well, enough of that!

and on to The Big Midnight. sometimes i feel like i'm an alien. i think that's a good thing. what's the big deal with january first? everyone knows that the year really starts on april 1. spring, new beginnings. what kind of year starts in the middle of winter?

i guess resolutions are a good thing. but how about them monthly, weekly, daily resolutions. those are the ones that stick.

Saturday, December 27, 2003

old school journal 12.27.03

a couple of days ago was christmas, and the past week has been chanukah/hanukkah.

for christmas i got gift cards/certificates, a bag for carrying my laptop, pajama pants, headphones, and a peanuts book.

what is hanukkah? well, i learned this week that hanukkah is so full of meaning that one never tires of asking "what is hanukkah?" so ask away. but basically it's a feast of dedication. it celebrates a time not long before the coming of messiah when the jews took back the temple from the greeks who had defiled it with idols and detestible sacrifices.

Friday, December 12, 2003

old school journal 12.12.03

so, mtv. that's been my life for the last couple of days, with a little comedy central and cartoon network thrown in.

the videos aren't as enjoyable now as they have been in the past. the videos that i have enjoyed seeing over and over and over are outkast "hey ya" and linkin park "numb" two very different videos. the first light and fun, the second dark and deep. the famous line from the first is "shake it like a polaroid picture" from the second, "all i want to do is be more like me and less like you". in "hey ya" rapper andre ice cold 3000 of outkast plays the various members and back up singers of a fictional rock group. the main colors are bold green and white. andre dances around in such a nerdy way that it's cool. in "numb" linkin park sing in a huge gothic church, while a girl with a sketch pad in hand wanders through school, town and home in slow motion while the world speeds by her, not noticing when she falls down. she vents her pain through paint onto a canvas, then at the end of the song, for some reason she runs into the church where linkin park has been playing, but they're not there. the girls face doesn't look quite as sad.

the video i never want to see again and wish i hadn't seen what i did before changing the chanel is clay aiken's song. he's on an outdoor stage singing to his adoring crowd full of screaming crying girls. there were actually some guys in the crowd too. one of them with tatoos covering his arms. clay looks so akward on the stage. he should stick to standing still, singing slow songs. he prances around the stage with one hand holding the mic and the other arm sticking out like he's ready to be tipped over and poured out.

ok so that was my pointless thing that i felt like writing.

now to close with a quote by kid rock about jonny cash's very good last video. "if it sounds good, you'll hear it. if it looks good you'll see it. if it's marketed well, you'll probably buy it. but if it's real, you feel it."