this last week i learned about humility (much more than what i have written). my goal for this coming week is to do exactly what God wants for me to do. a big part of humility is realizing who you are in relation to God; and basically knowing your role, not trying to be someone greater or less than you are, but being one piece of the cosmic puzzle that fits where it is supposed to fit.
since i was very young, i've felt a sense of mission. i was a smart, rational kid. i reasoned, "i'm saved. now i get to go to heaven. that's pretty much what i've been told. but there's more to it; otherwise, the moment i prayed that prayer, God would have taken me up to heaven. but he left me on earth for a reason. i must be left here to tell other people about salvation, so that they can pray that prayer and tell others and so on and then eventually we'll all go to heaven." over time i have realized that, while "witnessing" is important, we are left on earth for a far greater reason. we are here to live. my job is not just to try and get myself and a bunch of people to heaven. the real purpose of living is to bring a piece of heaven to earth. and well, as a result of that taste of heaven, people will be hungry for more.
so anyways, i want to do my specific part that God has for me and no one else. the piece of heaven that only i can show to people.
Saturday, March 27, 2004
Wednesday, March 24, 2004
old school journal 3.24.04
i haven't been doing much on the site lately because it's so frustrating. it's tough to log-on, and then it doesn't save. i think it's the computers here, because it's kindof the same with my email.
ok so i've been studying this week's parshah and i've been amazed at how much i'm getting out of it. it is the first 5 chapters of Leviticus, about the sacrifices and stuff. last year i learned all about how they were done and everything. it was like woopee, but what does that mean for me? this year i'm seeing the symbolism and the driving force behind the sacrifices. it's so cool!
the theme that's being hit home to me is humility and dignity. one thing that has made humility such a difficult concept is that i focused on humility within myself. the idea that "i need to be more humble within myself". but humility is toward God. it's not so much about making yourself less, but making others more.
our weakness shows God's strength more clearly. but we must also remember our own worth. when we think that we are so insignificant that it doesn't matter what we do, then we don't think it matters what we do, so we do anything. but knowing our worth, we know that what we do matters, and we seek to advance God's kingdom with our actions. it's the same with prayer. if we think our prayers don't matter, we wont pray.
God has chosen for us to be a pivotal part of his plan. Adam in his pride tried to grasp for godliness, (your eyes will be opened and you will be like God, knowing good and evil) and was disobedient, but we are to be like Christ who did not consider godliness something to be grasped but made himself a servant and he was obedient. we must be obedient knowing our proper place in the sceme of things, that we are not insignificant, but we are not the greatest.
ok so i've been studying this week's parshah and i've been amazed at how much i'm getting out of it. it is the first 5 chapters of Leviticus, about the sacrifices and stuff. last year i learned all about how they were done and everything. it was like woopee, but what does that mean for me? this year i'm seeing the symbolism and the driving force behind the sacrifices. it's so cool!
the theme that's being hit home to me is humility and dignity. one thing that has made humility such a difficult concept is that i focused on humility within myself. the idea that "i need to be more humble within myself". but humility is toward God. it's not so much about making yourself less, but making others more.
our weakness shows God's strength more clearly. but we must also remember our own worth. when we think that we are so insignificant that it doesn't matter what we do, then we don't think it matters what we do, so we do anything. but knowing our worth, we know that what we do matters, and we seek to advance God's kingdom with our actions. it's the same with prayer. if we think our prayers don't matter, we wont pray.
God has chosen for us to be a pivotal part of his plan. Adam in his pride tried to grasp for godliness, (your eyes will be opened and you will be like God, knowing good and evil) and was disobedient, but we are to be like Christ who did not consider godliness something to be grasped but made himself a servant and he was obedient. we must be obedient knowing our proper place in the sceme of things, that we are not insignificant, but we are not the greatest.
Wednesday, March 10, 2004
old school journal 3.10.04
why? i started off so well. i had a plan, a strategy, a schedule. and yet i am in the middle of writing 23 pages in 32 hours. what is it that causes me to procrastinate even when i give myself a head start. o well. i'll survive. gotta go.
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i'm back. i'm at work, and i had to actually do something. so this afternoon i am going to take a nap. then later i'm going to my girlfriend, joy's birthday party. wahoo!
ok that's all for now.
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i'm back. i'm at work, and i had to actually do something. so this afternoon i am going to take a nap. then later i'm going to my girlfriend, joy's birthday party. wahoo!
ok that's all for now.
Friday, March 05, 2004
old school journal 3.5.04
yesterday it rained and stormed. today it's bright and sunny and it's supposed to stay this way for a week. a week from today i'll be on spring break. yesterday i was in the library during the storm. i went into the achievement center to work. nobody came in for tutoring. all the tutors sat in silence for an hour. then at quitting time we all got up and left. during the storm, i decided to go take a look outside. it was crazy wet and windy. the window doors were kinda fogged up, so i decided to open the door and get a better looked. i cracked the door and was instantly soaked. buckets of rain were blown in on me. it literally felt like a shower, and not one of those low pressure shower heads. by the end of work it was bright and sunny.
Wednesday, March 03, 2004
old school journal 3.3.04
so a lot has happened in the last couple of weeks. the sun came out. i got a girlfriend. she's the coolest girl ever. people have been talking a lot about revival at school. the passion is in theaters. it's raining.
Saturday, February 14, 2004
old school journal 2.14.04
it snowed!
that's right. this morning i woke up and looked out my window and saw white. we got like a good 2 inches of wet snow. people were making snow-persons this morning. so now pretty much all the snow is off of the ground.
one of the snow-persons this morning had a plank through it's eye. what a hypocritical sinning snowman.
that's right. this morning i woke up and looked out my window and saw white. we got like a good 2 inches of wet snow. people were making snow-persons this morning. so now pretty much all the snow is off of the ground.
one of the snow-persons this morning had a plank through it's eye. what a hypocritical sinning snowman.
Monday, February 09, 2004
old school journal 2.9.04
wow it's been a while since my last "entry"
well, yesterday i went to a presbyterian church.
the outside was as big and impressive as the baptist church. there were little "altar girls" standing at the huge wooden doors handing out the bulletins/programs that would be our much needed guide for the service.
we went into the tall sanctuary with many arches and stained glass windows. the top half of the front wall had this really cool looking wooden thing. it was a bunch of arches and designs carved into one big arch, sort of like a big shield. i know i'm not describing it very well. sorry.
the choir had on red robes with a cross on the collar, the bell choir wore the same robes, but also had white gloves. the pastor had on a blue robe and when he came out he looked angry and disapproving. he kept that expression through most of the service.
the "altar girls" walked up the center aisle and lit the candles that were in front of the pulpit.
the choir sang. the bell choir played amazing grace. it sounded lovely. we sang a couple hymns. the only instruments were an organ and a trumpet. there was a prayer that the congregation prayed from the bulletin about how sinful we were. then the pastor said that we were forgiven. there were more songs and prayers, a couple of scripture readings, and the apostle's creed. and there was a short, boring, sometimes confusing sermon about not worrying. and a couple more songs and then we exited the sanctuary to the tune of the postlude titled "postludium".
as we went back out the huge wooden doors, the pastor shook our hands and asked our names. he was the first person to talk to us since the "altar girls" when we entered, and i think they were actually talking to each other.
well, yesterday i went to a presbyterian church.
the outside was as big and impressive as the baptist church. there were little "altar girls" standing at the huge wooden doors handing out the bulletins/programs that would be our much needed guide for the service.
we went into the tall sanctuary with many arches and stained glass windows. the top half of the front wall had this really cool looking wooden thing. it was a bunch of arches and designs carved into one big arch, sort of like a big shield. i know i'm not describing it very well. sorry.
the choir had on red robes with a cross on the collar, the bell choir wore the same robes, but also had white gloves. the pastor had on a blue robe and when he came out he looked angry and disapproving. he kept that expression through most of the service.
the "altar girls" walked up the center aisle and lit the candles that were in front of the pulpit.
the choir sang. the bell choir played amazing grace. it sounded lovely. we sang a couple hymns. the only instruments were an organ and a trumpet. there was a prayer that the congregation prayed from the bulletin about how sinful we were. then the pastor said that we were forgiven. there were more songs and prayers, a couple of scripture readings, and the apostle's creed. and there was a short, boring, sometimes confusing sermon about not worrying. and a couple more songs and then we exited the sanctuary to the tune of the postlude titled "postludium".
as we went back out the huge wooden doors, the pastor shook our hands and asked our names. he was the first person to talk to us since the "altar girls" when we entered, and i think they were actually talking to each other.
Sunday, January 25, 2004
old school journal 1.25.04
today i went to a baptist church. the outside is like a castle. i got lost on the inside. there are all these halls and stairs and an elevator. but the people were very friendly and helpful. in the sanctuary, there were big ole organ pipes on the walls. and stained glass windows with scenes of jesus all around the tops of the walls. in front there was i big icon of jesus being baptized by john. there was a lot of standing and sitting. and no clapping. it was different from what i'm used to, but it wasn't all that weird. i'll be going to a presbyterian church in two weeks. then later a catholic church, and possibly one sunday a gay church. stay tuned.
Friday, January 23, 2004
old school journal 1.23.04
my work is done. the achievement center is a really cool place to work. after i got off of work, i did some errands (it's spelled right), then i came home and did laundry and dishes. i'm ready for rest.
for those of you who dont know, i observe the sabbath. i have been doing so for almost a year now. and it is a delight. friday is preperation day. get all the loose ends tied up and make sure everything's ready for the sabbath. all the extra work i did makes the rest all that much more restful.
sometimes i wonder, why havent i always done this?!? i vaguely remember thinking that it would be a burden to keep the sabbath. but when i try to remember why... a burden? a hard thing? rest is difficult? what was i thinking? yes it does take preparation, some thinking ahead, and there are sacrifices. i may have to settle for less money at work, there are some things i might not be involved in that i would enjoy. but there's more to life than money and pleasure.
i used to think, "what's the point of only keeping one day a week holy? i can make seven days holy. and what's so unholy about work?" but it is a day set apart where you focus completely on God. today, while i was doing the dishes i was praying and thinking about God, but my mind was going between two things- dishes and God. tomorrow i can be more focused on him.
the other day i read the official A/G perspective on observing the sabbath. i was surprised to see that they say we should keep the sabbath. but they modify it and suggest keeping it on sunday and not on the sabbath. i'm not going to follow that rabbit trail right now. but i probably will write about it some other time.
on another topic, i have started writing a "to-do list" the last couple of weeks. i highly recomend doing this. it helps me get things done. and i feel like i've accomplished stuff, because i can look at the paper and see all that stuff marked off.
the sun's about to go down. so, as my roomate ben might say, "shalom"
for those of you who dont know, i observe the sabbath. i have been doing so for almost a year now. and it is a delight. friday is preperation day. get all the loose ends tied up and make sure everything's ready for the sabbath. all the extra work i did makes the rest all that much more restful.
sometimes i wonder, why havent i always done this?!? i vaguely remember thinking that it would be a burden to keep the sabbath. but when i try to remember why... a burden? a hard thing? rest is difficult? what was i thinking? yes it does take preparation, some thinking ahead, and there are sacrifices. i may have to settle for less money at work, there are some things i might not be involved in that i would enjoy. but there's more to life than money and pleasure.
i used to think, "what's the point of only keeping one day a week holy? i can make seven days holy. and what's so unholy about work?" but it is a day set apart where you focus completely on God. today, while i was doing the dishes i was praying and thinking about God, but my mind was going between two things- dishes and God. tomorrow i can be more focused on him.
the other day i read the official A/G perspective on observing the sabbath. i was surprised to see that they say we should keep the sabbath. but they modify it and suggest keeping it on sunday and not on the sabbath. i'm not going to follow that rabbit trail right now. but i probably will write about it some other time.
on another topic, i have started writing a "to-do list" the last couple of weeks. i highly recomend doing this. it helps me get things done. and i feel like i've accomplished stuff, because i can look at the paper and see all that stuff marked off.
the sun's about to go down. so, as my roomate ben might say, "shalom"
Wednesday, January 21, 2004
old school journal 1.21.04
today at work i helped my first student! the first sessions are mainly about time management and organization. then we move on to study strategies, test taking, and writing. this semester a lot of it is going to just be working with students on their tougher subjects.
so i went in for an hour this morning. pretty boring. did a couple errands (is that how you spell it?). then this afternoon i came in and there was again nothing to do. so i got trained some more. this time the training was more in-depth. what to do with the student each week, step by step. so as i was being trained a couple of students came in and i got to work with one.
the student basically did everything and i just watched. but i still felt very important.
yes, when students are making all A's, i will know that it is mostly because i sat there and watched them write their assignments in their planners. good for me.
so i went in for an hour this morning. pretty boring. did a couple errands (is that how you spell it?). then this afternoon i came in and there was again nothing to do. so i got trained some more. this time the training was more in-depth. what to do with the student each week, step by step. so as i was being trained a couple of students came in and i got to work with one.
the student basically did everything and i just watched. but i still felt very important.
yes, when students are making all A's, i will know that it is mostly because i sat there and watched them write their assignments in their planners. good for me.
Sunday, January 18, 2004
old school journal 1.18.04
im still hyped from the skillet concert friday night. we got there two hours early and snuk in the side door. there were already some saguians in there. we chilled with the band for a while (sort of). then we had to go outside and stand in line for like twenty minutes to get back in.
a few local bands opened. they were mostly not too bad.
but then skillet played. they rocked the house. the packed house. almost sold out. they didn't play many of the classics. the oldest song they played was from their second album. i gotta say the moshing was crazy. and the people that were banging into each other were all so friendly. good times.
after the show i got to meet one of the original skillet band members, who are no longer in the band. he was there just hanging out. cool stuff.
one of my roommates is out of town today. i dont see or hang out with my roommates much. when im in the apartment, i'm usually in my room working on something or sleeping. otherwise i'm not in my room. i'm in classes, the library, cafeteria, or doing something. my roommates are cool though.
with four people sharing the apartment, it's surprisingly easy to wash my clothes. the machine is not often ocupado. i hear that there are people who only wash their clothes a couple times a semester. cool for them.
a few local bands opened. they were mostly not too bad.
but then skillet played. they rocked the house. the packed house. almost sold out. they didn't play many of the classics. the oldest song they played was from their second album. i gotta say the moshing was crazy. and the people that were banging into each other were all so friendly. good times.
after the show i got to meet one of the original skillet band members, who are no longer in the band. he was there just hanging out. cool stuff.
one of my roommates is out of town today. i dont see or hang out with my roommates much. when im in the apartment, i'm usually in my room working on something or sleeping. otherwise i'm not in my room. i'm in classes, the library, cafeteria, or doing something. my roommates are cool though.
with four people sharing the apartment, it's surprisingly easy to wash my clothes. the machine is not often ocupado. i hear that there are people who only wash their clothes a couple times a semester. cool for them.
Thursday, January 15, 2004
old school journal 1.15.04
it's a beautiful day.
the ground is moist the sky is grey. the coffee place smells like coffee. the stray cat is banished from campus.
work today was a blast and a half. i only had to go in an hour for "training." i still have no idea what i'm doing. i'm supposed to teach these study skills to students, but i dont even know what the skills are. well, good thing i'm pretty good at wingin it.
i'm feeling extra diligent this semester. i'm organized and motivated. i could just tackle my research papers right away. and i'm thinking i better do just that. this motivation is bound to wear off.
tomorrow night -Skillet concert at The Door. i'm excited.
next week, my greek proff, dr. paul alexander will be at a conference in malta. (yes, that's the island where paul shipwrecked).
time for dinner
"what have you done for him lately"
the ground is moist the sky is grey. the coffee place smells like coffee. the stray cat is banished from campus.
work today was a blast and a half. i only had to go in an hour for "training." i still have no idea what i'm doing. i'm supposed to teach these study skills to students, but i dont even know what the skills are. well, good thing i'm pretty good at wingin it.
i'm feeling extra diligent this semester. i'm organized and motivated. i could just tackle my research papers right away. and i'm thinking i better do just that. this motivation is bound to wear off.
tomorrow night -Skillet concert at The Door. i'm excited.
next week, my greek proff, dr. paul alexander will be at a conference in malta. (yes, that's the island where paul shipwrecked).
time for dinner
"what have you done for him lately"
Wednesday, January 14, 2004
old school journal 1.14.04
this morning i woke up and i noticed that it seemed really dark. and the clock said it was late enough that it should be light out. and so i got ready for the day and stepped outside and it was so stinkin foggy. i couldn't even see any of the enormous buildings on campus. i felt my way to the cafeteria and had breakfast. the applesauce was extra cinnamony today.
i had my first class today. yay!
i start work tomorrow at the achievement center. i had orientation for this job on monday. i will be a tutor. so that means i get to feel smart. i will have to be confidential just like in counseling, because some people dont want other people to know they are getting help at the achievement center. but all kinds of people go to the achievement center for many various reasons. even over-achievers can achieve a little more. so you should stop on by and somebody will help you. and i wont be allowed to tell anybody. and another policy they have there is that i am not allowed to do any tutoring outside of work. period. so if you want me to help you with a paper, you have to schedule an appointment at the AC.
today, president bridges described a bad dude that he sat next to on a plane. it could have been me. i have worn a piece or two of fubu clothing, i listen to loud music loudly, and i may someday read the communist manifesto.
in conclusion: be salt and light.
i had my first class today. yay!
i start work tomorrow at the achievement center. i had orientation for this job on monday. i will be a tutor. so that means i get to feel smart. i will have to be confidential just like in counseling, because some people dont want other people to know they are getting help at the achievement center. but all kinds of people go to the achievement center for many various reasons. even over-achievers can achieve a little more. so you should stop on by and somebody will help you. and i wont be allowed to tell anybody. and another policy they have there is that i am not allowed to do any tutoring outside of work. period. so if you want me to help you with a paper, you have to schedule an appointment at the AC.
today, president bridges described a bad dude that he sat next to on a plane. it could have been me. i have worn a piece or two of fubu clothing, i listen to loud music loudly, and i may someday read the communist manifesto.
in conclusion: be salt and light.
Sunday, January 11, 2004
old school journal 1.11.04
im back at SAofGU a.k.a. southwesternassembliesofgoduniversity. i got back last night. boy was i tired. a couple of people called me when i got here. it made me feel welcome. it's good to be back. i ate in the cafeteria today. the food was pretty good. everybody's all happy today. we're all glad to see our friends again. yippy la la. smile smile. cool stuff.
so i have two new roomates this semester, phil and joe. i walked into the apartment last night and there they were watching football. and there was a big ole couch infront of my bedroom door. so i walked around it and went into my room to find ben watching "finding nemo" (good movie). so i watched the end of the movie with him and went to sleep. a full 8 hours. so nice.
so i'm glad to be back in waxahachie. i wonder what will happen this semester.
so i have two new roomates this semester, phil and joe. i walked into the apartment last night and there they were watching football. and there was a big ole couch infront of my bedroom door. so i walked around it and went into my room to find ben watching "finding nemo" (good movie). so i watched the end of the movie with him and went to sleep. a full 8 hours. so nice.
so i'm glad to be back in waxahachie. i wonder what will happen this semester.
Monday, January 05, 2004
old school journal 1.5.04
today is my brother's birthday! yay!
so this week i'm working, and next week i'll be back in texas at school.
so this week i'm working, and next week i'll be back in texas at school.
Saturday, January 03, 2004
old school journal 1.3.04
it snowed! it's been snowing since last night and it snowed all day. the last time it snowed was the night i got here and it was only a few inches. but now it's snowy and cold and the roads are slippery. yipee!
Wednesday, December 31, 2003
old school journal 12.31.03
so i decided to write something today. since it's new year's eve, i'll write about that. and i'll also write about something else.
first, the something else. "so, what do you want to do?" i really don't care what we do.
from Good Will Hunting:
Skylar: Maybe we could go out for coffee sometime?
Will: Great, or maybe we could go somewhere and just eat a bunch of caramels.
Skylar: What?
Will: When you think about it, it's just as arbitrary as drinking coffee.
and so often we find things to entertain ourselves and occupy our time. when hanging out the focus should be on your friends. but so often it seems that we hang out just to not be alone. i'm sure many people in our society know what it feels like to be alone in a crowded room.
and this has become spiritual for me. sadly, i admit, this is where i am spiritually. i find ways to occupy my time so that i dont have to sit face-to-face (one-on-one) with God. how did this happen? i think it was just a gradual process of neglect. first, maybe i became too busy. then, the busyness faded and i got bored. and instead of curing it with my creator, i wasted time with other things. well, enough of that!
and on to The Big Midnight. sometimes i feel like i'm an alien. i think that's a good thing. what's the big deal with january first? everyone knows that the year really starts on april 1. spring, new beginnings. what kind of year starts in the middle of winter?
i guess resolutions are a good thing. but how about them monthly, weekly, daily resolutions. those are the ones that stick.
first, the something else. "so, what do you want to do?" i really don't care what we do.
from Good Will Hunting:
Skylar: Maybe we could go out for coffee sometime?
Will: Great, or maybe we could go somewhere and just eat a bunch of caramels.
Skylar: What?
Will: When you think about it, it's just as arbitrary as drinking coffee.
and so often we find things to entertain ourselves and occupy our time. when hanging out the focus should be on your friends. but so often it seems that we hang out just to not be alone. i'm sure many people in our society know what it feels like to be alone in a crowded room.
and this has become spiritual for me. sadly, i admit, this is where i am spiritually. i find ways to occupy my time so that i dont have to sit face-to-face (one-on-one) with God. how did this happen? i think it was just a gradual process of neglect. first, maybe i became too busy. then, the busyness faded and i got bored. and instead of curing it with my creator, i wasted time with other things. well, enough of that!
and on to The Big Midnight. sometimes i feel like i'm an alien. i think that's a good thing. what's the big deal with january first? everyone knows that the year really starts on april 1. spring, new beginnings. what kind of year starts in the middle of winter?
i guess resolutions are a good thing. but how about them monthly, weekly, daily resolutions. those are the ones that stick.
Saturday, December 27, 2003
old school journal 12.27.03
a couple of days ago was christmas, and the past week has been chanukah/hanukkah.
for christmas i got gift cards/certificates, a bag for carrying my laptop, pajama pants, headphones, and a peanuts book.
what is hanukkah? well, i learned this week that hanukkah is so full of meaning that one never tires of asking "what is hanukkah?" so ask away. but basically it's a feast of dedication. it celebrates a time not long before the coming of messiah when the jews took back the temple from the greeks who had defiled it with idols and detestible sacrifices.
for christmas i got gift cards/certificates, a bag for carrying my laptop, pajama pants, headphones, and a peanuts book.
what is hanukkah? well, i learned this week that hanukkah is so full of meaning that one never tires of asking "what is hanukkah?" so ask away. but basically it's a feast of dedication. it celebrates a time not long before the coming of messiah when the jews took back the temple from the greeks who had defiled it with idols and detestible sacrifices.
Friday, December 12, 2003
old school journal 12.12.03
so, mtv. that's been my life for the last couple of days, with a little comedy central and cartoon network thrown in.
the videos aren't as enjoyable now as they have been in the past. the videos that i have enjoyed seeing over and over and over are outkast "hey ya" and linkin park "numb" two very different videos. the first light and fun, the second dark and deep. the famous line from the first is "shake it like a polaroid picture" from the second, "all i want to do is be more like me and less like you". in "hey ya" rapper andre ice cold 3000 of outkast plays the various members and back up singers of a fictional rock group. the main colors are bold green and white. andre dances around in such a nerdy way that it's cool. in "numb" linkin park sing in a huge gothic church, while a girl with a sketch pad in hand wanders through school, town and home in slow motion while the world speeds by her, not noticing when she falls down. she vents her pain through paint onto a canvas, then at the end of the song, for some reason she runs into the church where linkin park has been playing, but they're not there. the girls face doesn't look quite as sad.
the video i never want to see again and wish i hadn't seen what i did before changing the chanel is clay aiken's song. he's on an outdoor stage singing to his adoring crowd full of screaming crying girls. there were actually some guys in the crowd too. one of them with tatoos covering his arms. clay looks so akward on the stage. he should stick to standing still, singing slow songs. he prances around the stage with one hand holding the mic and the other arm sticking out like he's ready to be tipped over and poured out.
ok so that was my pointless thing that i felt like writing.
now to close with a quote by kid rock about jonny cash's very good last video. "if it sounds good, you'll hear it. if it looks good you'll see it. if it's marketed well, you'll probably buy it. but if it's real, you feel it."
the videos aren't as enjoyable now as they have been in the past. the videos that i have enjoyed seeing over and over and over are outkast "hey ya" and linkin park "numb" two very different videos. the first light and fun, the second dark and deep. the famous line from the first is "shake it like a polaroid picture" from the second, "all i want to do is be more like me and less like you". in "hey ya" rapper andre ice cold 3000 of outkast plays the various members and back up singers of a fictional rock group. the main colors are bold green and white. andre dances around in such a nerdy way that it's cool. in "numb" linkin park sing in a huge gothic church, while a girl with a sketch pad in hand wanders through school, town and home in slow motion while the world speeds by her, not noticing when she falls down. she vents her pain through paint onto a canvas, then at the end of the song, for some reason she runs into the church where linkin park has been playing, but they're not there. the girls face doesn't look quite as sad.
the video i never want to see again and wish i hadn't seen what i did before changing the chanel is clay aiken's song. he's on an outdoor stage singing to his adoring crowd full of screaming crying girls. there were actually some guys in the crowd too. one of them with tatoos covering his arms. clay looks so akward on the stage. he should stick to standing still, singing slow songs. he prances around the stage with one hand holding the mic and the other arm sticking out like he's ready to be tipped over and poured out.
ok so that was my pointless thing that i felt like writing.
now to close with a quote by kid rock about jonny cash's very good last video. "if it sounds good, you'll hear it. if it looks good you'll see it. if it's marketed well, you'll probably buy it. but if it's real, you feel it."
Tuesday, November 11, 2003
old school journal 11.11.03
the other day i was listening to genny owens. i heard a song that i first heard over a hear ago. it's called "I Am" i used to listen to it often before i would go to witness in dallas.
the song uses the examples of moses, david, and mary. God asks them to do great things for him. but they feel so insignificant and ask how God is going to do this through them.
"it's not your problem, God replies, i can do anything. there's a bigger picture you cant see. you dont have to change the world, just trust in me. i am your creator; i am working out my plan. and through you i will show them I am."
it's refreshing to know that i dont have to change the world. that burden is God's to carry, not mine. when i speak to an unbeliever, it's not my job to change his heart; i cant do that. i must present God to him in the best way i can, but the rest is up to the Spirit. trust and obey, there is no other way to be happy in Jesus but to trust and obey.
the song uses the examples of moses, david, and mary. God asks them to do great things for him. but they feel so insignificant and ask how God is going to do this through them.
"it's not your problem, God replies, i can do anything. there's a bigger picture you cant see. you dont have to change the world, just trust in me. i am your creator; i am working out my plan. and through you i will show them I am."
it's refreshing to know that i dont have to change the world. that burden is God's to carry, not mine. when i speak to an unbeliever, it's not my job to change his heart; i cant do that. i must present God to him in the best way i can, but the rest is up to the Spirit. trust and obey, there is no other way to be happy in Jesus but to trust and obey.
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